Poem-Mash

Fade to Grey

2010-10-02T12:46:00.000+01:00

Today a day, just so long

It drags a lifetime

In a mind of wrongs

The sound of beating overwhelms

Chemicals are at the helm

When did this man fade to grey

How did it all slip by, so ashamed

A simple moment is no longer free

Freedom now a goal, not seen

A meal, a touch, a helping hand

Makes heavy weary pressures, unsound

Each measly task holds its greedy fear

This man’s head is a book

But words are unclear

The noose around his life, so tight

Each idea is brave

Each hour is a fight

Annoying prick: Awaiting Friend Confirmation

2010-10-02T12:32:00.003+01:00

Added you today

But for some strange reason

I'm still 'awaiting friend confirmation'

You know me, it's meee,

Why not accept me?

I'm your friend after all

Someone you know

A pal to 'like' and 'comment' upon

To point out when you're wrong

To send you an awesome song

Remember me?

We went to the same school

Or was it work?

Heck, I forget

Who cares, we're mates

I remember your stag do

Actually that was Stu..

Hmm

Do I really know you?

The Pigeons

2010-10-02T12:22:00.000+01:00

Bubudeeboo
Bubudeeboo
I pray for a day
Without bubudeeboo
Fluffing and flapping your wings
Is driving my mind to bad things
Bad things I want to do to you
Like, flick back your poo at you
Feed you Resolve
And watch you explode
Bubudeeboo
I plead spite at you
I'd like to spit feathers at you
And roast you for tea
With minted peas
Get off my window sill
Bubudeeboo
Now rotting from your poisonous poo
Like your own personal loo
What I really need is a dog lead
To impede you
Feed back your shit to you
Bubudeeboo
Your time is up birdy num num
A cork has been readied
To seal up your bum
No more bubudeeboo
No more poo poo
This is the end for you

Being Thirty-Two

2010-04-16T16:25:00.000+01:00

So here something dreadful, I do enjoy writing some complete dirge sometimes.

Oh dear god, I'm thirty-two
The year that rhymes with grim and poo
I think I preferred thirty-one
Since this does rhyme with joy and fun
Another year gone by oh fuck
Getting wrinkly really does suck
Life is running away a bit too quick
Time to slap it for taking the mick
Come here oh life for you are mine
Stop ticking ye endless clocks of time
Keep me pert and youthful please
Give wave to frown lines, set me free!

So Crazy Like All of You

2010-01-27T11:03:00.000Z

Never been one to do as I’m told

Always dreaming life rock and roll

Against the pack

Against the rat

Standing up for the attacked

I over-fill the bath a lot

Maybe I should just be shot

Put me down

Give a frown

It’s too late to turn me ‘round

Like to wear my socks in bed

Paint my stubby nails red

Let them chip

Chew them down

Life’s just crazy with me around

I used to try so hard to show

Strut my heels, hurt my toes

Flirty bitch

Dirty glitch

I still dream a lot of being rich

Never envied a boss I’ve had

I’m annoying, he’s a bit sad

Wasting time

Feeding lines

Deciding who is next in line

Para

2009-11-18T18:41:00.000Z

Are you being watched?
Do you know what’s happening behind your back?
Does everything seem hollow?
Do you miss the pills and blow?
Is there a man down the road who knows?

Coming along nicely
Coming a-a-along quite rightly
Coming up and along
Everything is just wrong

Are you checking the list for signs?
Looking over your shoulders for the man
Does the symbol rhyme this time?
Can you manage a pill today?
Will you run and hide away?

Coming along nicely
Coming a-a-along quite rightly
Coming up and along
Everything is just wrong

Are you alone in a crowded place?
Do you issue orders that are fake?
Does it all feel stutter-brain tight?
All through the night
Nothing here feels right

Coming along nicely
Coming a-a-along quite rightly
Coming up and along
Everything is just wrong

A Man

2009-11-01T20:00:00.000Z

He’s carefully watching his steps

Waiting patiently for the tells

He’s sorry for what happened

It’s not his fault, he doesn’t own time

The future is tripping up his feet

Before he goes ahead to know

Dividing the path more ritual

Love broken down by control

Reminiscent glances he had

The fireplace was woody warm

From pride and protection

He is shamefully torn

2009-10-20T16:44:00.000+01:00

Please take a few minutes and listen to this BBC Radio 4 programme:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b006qn7f

It's about bullying; an old friend of mine Luke Welsh is interviewed regarding his teenage experiences with terrible bullying and his subsequent poetry writing.

xx

Thinking of you

2009-10-15T18:09:00.000+01:00

Your eyes make me blind

So I find, I can’t sleep through

Telling times are these before you

Revolution in your watery stare

Running deep into the blue

Images of you pounding, needing

The walking feet, they meet

Asking for a simple support

My day has been filled with you

Imagination ruling thought

No reckless wonder delusion

The allure will prevail

In another day, dream,

Another plain, another tale

Lie Down in a Canyon

2009-08-21T17:03:00.000+01:00

I’m going to lie down in a canyon
I’m going to feel the great big air
I’m going to lie down in a canyon
I’m going to burn up all my chairs

Spread my arms and legs out
I’m going to signal to the moon
Fill my lungs with gladness
I no longer need a room

I’m going to lie down in a canyon
I’m going to breath all through the night
I’m going to lie down in a canyon
And stop caring what is right

Breasts

2009-08-21T16:45:00.000+01:00

Breasts
Arm rests
A test
The best
And the rest
Comfort pillow
Bosses
In charge
Without position
In charge
In the front line
Fodder
Taking a hint
Love front
Mask
Unwanted
In face

Blazing

2009-07-30T19:13:00.000+01:00

Running, I’m running

Right up close to you

I’m coming, coming

Along for the ride

Away into the big blue

Rain droplets in our hands

Under a raspberry ripple sky

Passionate dreams float in my mind

Streamers through my heart

I’m swimming animated

A blazing dart

Deny

2009-07-11T04:24:00.001+01:00

Taking all I have

Every stretch of it all

I am going to have him

Going back in time

Remembering the way

Sitting at the table

Standing at the side

Holding your hand

Making my mind

I want to go back

I want the ride

Chosen Words

2009-07-09T17:16:00.000+01:00

Another reminder of what’s gone
Written proof; black and white
The pain, published absolute
Some release is offered up
In a torrent of well chosen words
Scars may fade away
Leaving a half-life compartment to visit
When it’s one of those days
Dates to remember, or forget
Looking back, so many hours spent
Escaping from lump in throat

Nag, Nag

2009-07-02T22:15:00.000+01:00

Grow up, stop that, do this
Pull your finger out man
Get with the program
Do you know who I am?
Too late, always wrong
Why do you have to play that song?
Never listen to me or hear
Always out drinking beer
Living in some fancy dream
What does it all really mean?
Show your strength man
Be a proper husband type
Forever lacking conviction
Master of affectation
Foot in mouth, wrong shirt
Take responsibility
Show what your worth

Beautiful Blue

2009-07-02T17:27:00.000+01:00

Like a shooting star I wish upon you

It feels good to stretch out to you

I know you, yes I do, and I do, and I do

I’m falling in love with you

You’re a water fountain, beautiful blue

Switched on to your soul-mate chime

Touching my skin with your eyes, your mind

I am falling in love with you

Riding the wind, running wild

Like a coin toss life under the stars

I pack my jar of midnight oil

I’ve fallen in love with you

The way is

2009-06-19T18:02:00.000+01:00

How to runaway and stay
How to stay the same and change
When to know what’s good and right
How to sleep all through the night
The things we say and things we do
When you know it’s through, it’s through
How to hang and try once more
How to choose me, you, the door
The simple choices we have to choose
Where the decision is to fall
How to feel your way to stand
How to stay up when you’re down
When a courtesy is just that
The way is. The way you go

Repartee

2009-03-07T18:04:00.000Z

Tease away my insipid tales

You ask for hushed acceptance

I’m the covetous beloved

Philanthropic, work of art

Poised for a finger to stroke my heart

All prose, a mask, to lift me up

Cleanse away your unclean thoughts

I am the muse of your retort

Matron. Hostess. Cowgirl,

Waiting for the bid and tell

Ding Dong

2009-02-21T18:09:00.000Z

Ding dong
I have gone
Ding dong
Your rules are wrong
You can’t impede any further
This time’s for real
This time, you’re going to feel
Don’t hate me, don’t hate me
Is your mouth poised for apology?
Are you sorry my man-boy-son?
So very sorry for what you’ve done
A lifetime of moments gone by
Washing, waiting, shopping, abating
Chance by chance
Year by year
Your repertoire of sorrow and fear
Just isn’t enough to uphold
A fairytale-ending story, anymore
Time to go
Day by day
Memories don’t forget the pain
But confidence overthrows
And I chose me, I chose breathe
I walk single-handedly with myself
Now there’s no need to fight
Don’t wonder about me
As I do not shout

Black Leg

2007-08-02T18:07:00.000+01:00

How can I resolve to tell you?
Nothing more
And nothing less
The way you talk and
The method by which you ignore
The most important liberties behind a door

Arrived here already without much
Time is quick and meddlesome
But you come back, and – make – scum
Marks all down the side
Another futile poisonous chide
Seeps from your poisonous maw

Unreal life in your ego-claw
Festering, rotting in the place
The home of one-time threat
Your fingers press my neck
Pictures
Of My Legs Black

Perhaps a frame would facilitate
The way I talk and
The means by which
I attend to you
My greatest liberty
Is not pretend

Ark!

2007-08-01T17:48:00.000+01:00

Gulls of Hell
Gulls of Hell
Imploring me with Satan’s colossal bell

Your beaky bidding is all I find
In the enslaved recesses of my mind
Bin sacks bequeathed for you
In Your World
Cold chips not warmed by the hot oil of Hell
Hanging limp from The Beak
Fishy smell

Foolish mortals infect the land below
What are these doorstep eateries coming to?
Throw out a child for GULL to chew
Shit cunt poo on you
Fish pie cooked by number thirty five
Staring from the goldfish bowl
Is he STILL alive?

The future is here in Kemptown
Forced terrorisation upon the ground
Screaming down our turd
Prey of the bird
Time for gull rights and ethics
For one roof of gull
FOR US ALL

Gulls of Hell
Gulls of Hell
Imploring me with Satan’s colossal bell

Every Night Stand

2007-06-29T17:57:00.000+01:00

You know all the places where the bad men used to stay
I thought you understood the many games they all did play
It’s a reflection of the unborn shame inside you all
The girls with their eyes as dead as night
If they can lie, then lay down, for long enough
They will each get a dishonest kind of love

The bedposts were broke; the notches worn them down before
The girls ever got the chance, to re-strike a balance
That was never there for any of them
All the mattresses soaked through with the ongoing passing trade
Memories of these guests will be forgotten
All fairy tales, for little girls, are set to fade

The women, met the ladies, who met the girls
Who brought no knowledge, of each other’s
Pain and of glory, and another last-night’s story
Men of one-second memory please?
Give me a lifetime of misery
I want to be the princess; I am more innocent than the rest

It is written on all the girls’ faces that are here tonight
Yet none of them can see, none of them can read, or even write
That the reality was the drenched beds, that kept them solvent for one more night
Standing at the door of one house I hear you scream
Out into the silent cloak, that is patriarchy
Men tell you to lie-back, as the future is not for free.

10th September 1999 (Re-worked 29th June 2007)

You Died

2003-11-10T17:22:00.000Z

As the mist clears at dawn

You’re taken from me

I awake and reach out

Though you’re gone

Not there to touch

No worthy advantage taken

Anymore

Your breath no longer

Now just mine here

And me

Echoing are my feet

The tread worn

No more meat

Just my bones

Endless ringing phones

With black sorrowful gesture

Yet nobody knows

You’re gone

Not like you are to me

A glisten in the slack

You, my rock

My light

Put out one night

Without me

Dragging are the days

The hours hurt

No more heat

Just my waiting

One (or more) for the road...

2001-07-02T18:00:00.000+01:00

I’m creaking like a rusty hinge,
Oh deary me, another drinking binge.
Drink it, down it, just for the night,
As tomorrow brings up bile that’s bright.
Goodbye dear kidneys, it’s really time,
Ten vodkas too many, my evil crime.
I give thee water, but now too late,
Bring it on, oh liver sclerosis fate.
The mouth of putridness, yes, this is I,
Too many licked carpets not enough sober pie.

Can't Cope

2001-07-02T17:49:00.000+01:00

This life is feeling tired
Too much nonsense in here
Infinite baggage over acquired
A brain is bulging
All over the side

The balancing act
A daily routine
Mindful explosions don’t interact
A draining torment
Breaks down the slack

Head like a murky pond
No figure to speak of
A canyon replaces the useful bond
Crazy nervosa enters
Sanity has moved on

Apparent sleep lasts all day
Heavy limbs hibernate
Daylight is swapped for a lunar ray
Pallid enamel skin
Sunken eyes close once again

Non-friend

2001-03-23T17:43:00.000Z

Why is it I find,
Sometimes we’re all blind
People are shitty
We’re left only with pity
All of the sheep lie
They find it hard to cry
See their squinty faces
Take me through the paces
Back ache, face ache
I try, what you fake
Do you cry like a baby
Do you make friends like maybe

Without Child

2000-03-08T17:32:00.000Z

One of these days,

Oh save me from the monotony.

Really, I can’t bear anymore.

All we women are whores.

Why live through other people?

Is it not possible?

To create a script for ourselves.

Anymore.

Pass the blame, pass the shame.

Of course my dear it does

Not belong to you nor I.

No tears in these thousand million eyes.

One more time, all the same.

One seed; one birth.

No crime.

Encourage the inner pain of others.

Do not doubt, as we will not,

Mention it.

Isn’t loneliness the greater evil?

A friend of fear an enemy of the heart.

Tis but a game, which has happened

Take part.

No escape for the living.

No release in death, no belief.

Just dreams of those of us who can

Understand.

Hurt is there, scar to remind you.

Does not matter where

Life will always heel beside you

No More Scales

2000-02-22T17:56:00.000Z

Are you like your wine?
A green bottle sold and sunk
Down then out, fuck, fuck, fuck
Irritating my gut
Why don’t you just tell me?
What I can do, can’t do
When I can chew
When I’m with you

Pay for this, pay for that
I can fit into a place
And shag. And hate
I mean
I love you
Let’s talk some more of balance
Let’s balance some less of talk
Showing the lies and masking too

Much of the truth, that is you
Drink back, drink more
Saturate the core, of before
Reach the peak, goodbye peak
Say hello to those of us
Still hanging around the start
Where would we be? Without
We. Us. Together.
Is it enough?
Do we love, and can we be
Annoyed or irrationally
Irritated enough

Pour yourself another glass
Fuck, pour one for me too
Numbness is as good as it will
It always will, and always get
Drink back my love
Try not to, try to forget
The loves before the loves that’s now
I’m here to know

I can, and I will, drink and feel
Tell you
I’ll tell it all
Realise your strength towards us
When we are not
But now we are
Who said life should be about a balancing act?
Or a written or unwritten pact

Last drip from the bottle
Acid burning into the throat
I’ll share my water, just for tonight
I’ve changed my mind for you
I don’t want to fight
Tight arms around me again to feel like
I can be the one who is wrong
When neither of us is in the right

I'll Sue

1999-09-12T17:54:00.000+01:00

Lucky me lucky you
I can’t choose
What I have
It’s up to my ears
Watch my eyes bulge
As we divulge
Let’s not let’s do
Be true
Now
Tell me tell you
What is it I do?
It’s down to you
Can you can I?
Let’s lie let’s cry
How is it we still try?
Can I look us in the eye?
My, my
Make me make us
Have love have hate
It’s never too late
Lies always take the bait
Glad I lost that trait
Fuck fate fuck me
I know you see
I see you wait
Love me love you
I sign the note
And I fucking quote
It’s time you wrote

Nosey Nosey

1999-07-02T17:46:00.000+01:00

Contradiction reigns over all
Eating our brains
Each telephone call
The oracle square in every room
Leads us passively
To our doom
The governments pass away the blame
Nature mutates
And bears our shame
Morality instilled within our heart
We would not hurt
Of what we are part
I am conscious of all we breathe
I’ve read it in the paper
And I believe
Could anyone question what is right?
Opium slime
Swallow it overnight
The first five years of great importance
Socially integrated
Into a sponge of ignorance

Little Girls

1999-02-08T17:55:00.000Z

If you are a girl
Remember to be a boy
Remember to be
Somebody’s toy
If you like it
Don’t stop
Don’t stop
Don’t ever stop
We have charity
For those like I
Who feel the need
To try
For a tear in an eye
Makes part
Of us all
Should we, stand tall
Or dare to crawl
To the top
Equal
Contradiction calls
While pride falls
We have so much
To take
The girl on the make
So – ready for her break
Lay down girl
On the ground
Don’t make a sound

Wrapped Around

1998-06-05T17:28:00.000+01:00

Wrapped around my finger
You’ll be there
We should care
Wrapped around your finger
I’ll be there
In my despair
Wrapped around like fingers
We would dare
Just like we care
Wrapped around our mutual sins
As if they know
We would not show
Wrapped together in our fantasy
A dream we say
Two days away
Wrapped up in your commitment
It all becomes true
I will never have you

Unconditional Love

1998-03-12T17:39:00.000Z

Hit me again
You fucking shit
Rip out my soul
Just spit on it
Leave me alone
I’ll drink my tears
Leave me alone
I’ll have no fears
Love and hate
We sure have these
Respect and truth
Forget to say please
Touch me once more
I feel your pain
Touch me once more
It won’t be the same
Unconditional love
From me to you
The total control
From you, just you

Eye for an Eye (dedicated to Neal Harvey-Jones)

1995-07-02T17:52:00.000+01:00

It’s not fair
Why you?
Why? Why? Why?
Yet, I thought you knew why
Like I
Isn’t it always an eye for an eye?
No time to whisper goodbye
No time
To undo your lie
Why him?
Why him?
The nice guy
Was he not told the end
Was
Nigh
Still. Life never stopped to try
That’s why